I’ve been through times where I’ve loved God with all my heart, and other times where I’ve feared him, and it’s without doubt the times with love that has been the best and most uplifting times.
It’s a comfort to know that God always stays the same independent of how I see him. He is always love.
“The whole point of becoming a Christian was [...] to find freedom in knowing the true God. Or rather, in being known by this true God. Paul corrects himself in verse 9 [Galatians 4.9], because, as he says in 1 Corinthians 8.2-3, what really matters is not your knowledge about God, but God’s knowledge of you. Our knowledge of God is small, feeble, and partial, and seems to go up and down with our moods and feelings. If that was the thing that made us Christians, we would be building on very shaky foundations. What matters is that God has ‘known’ us; not just in the sense that he knows about us, though that of course is true as well, but that he has from his own side of the relationship, established a bond, a covenant, in which he knows us through and through, and names us as his own family.”
-Tom Wright-